One day, as soon as I told him what I would be doing, Kou shouted unusually.
The mission I received this time was to support the fort protected by the Sixth Corps.
It seemed like monsters appeared more frequently from the nearby forest.
Many were injured and some even died.
In response to that, itâs not strange that the Third Corps received a mission to support them.
The First Corps is the most important, while the Third Corps overwhelmingly had the highest number of deaths.
The place they have to support is sometimes far away, and because itâs a monster subjugation, we donât know when the monsters would appear so we need to live there.
I definitely canât go back for at least a month.
Itâs hard to be away from Kou during this time, butâŚI donât want to take him to a dangerous place.
Thereâll be a few people left for contact, so I told them to take care of Kou as well, butââ
âNo!! Kou, Ryodoâs, majichan! Togwether, go!â (No!! Iâm your magician! Letâs go together!)
He raised his arm and protested.
However, Kou is still an âapprentice magicianâ.
I canât take him on a support mission.
âKou, dangerous.â
âN,o!â
Unlike usual, I canât understand him at all.
âKou, majik, hand, can. Kou, togwether! Ryodo, togwether!â (I can lend a hand by using some magic. I want to stay with you!)
Iâm glad you want to be with me, but the place Iâm going to is too dangerous.
âKou, good boy. Until I get home, wait.â
âGud boy, wrong! Weit, no!â (Iâm not a good boy! I wonât wait!)
He doesnât listen at all.
âOne month, if I can, home.â (I can be home in one month.)
âYaăźăź!â
He shook his head and didnât agree.
(How can I persuade him?)
Usually, Iâm reluctant to compromise.
But this is the first time I canât fold in at all.
Weâre at the training center to introduce those who would stay with Kou while Iâm away, but I couldnât even do that.
Itâs been ânoâ since earlier.
âKou. Donât bother the Captain. If youâre an adult, listen to him.â
Itâs the first time Renneiga saw such a Kou, and he looked confused.
But as soon as he said thatââ
Kouâs atmosphere changed.
Earlier, Kou was dominated by anger and impatience.
But nowâŚ
It felt like Kou was swallowed by despair, so I hurriedly approached his side.
I didnât want to hurt Kou.
I just wanted him to stay in a safe place, so I chose to leave him behind.
However, the moment I was about to touch Kou, there was a clicking sound and I felt pain from my fingers.
ââŚKou?â
(Was I rejected?)
I couldnât believe it, but when I looked up at Kou, I felt my blood drain.
Heâs shedding tears and had gloomy eyes that seemed to reject anything.
âRyodo, always, togwether, friends. Wiar. âŚwiar, hate.â (Rodo said weâll always be together. Liar. Youâre a liar, I hate you.)
He wasnât as angry as before, but my heart squeezed at those plainly told words.
Kou hates me�
âRyodo, wiar. Hate. Marriage, do, no!â (Rodo is a liar. I hate you. I wonât marry you!)
Lost for words and petrified, I was even kicked out.
âWonât marryâ, he saysâŚ
I have been able to withstand any kind of attack, but Kouâs words alone caused me to suffer unbearable pain.
âOi! Donât make the Captain useless.â
Renneiga screamed in a hurry, but Kou isnât even looking at me anymore.
What I know is that Iâve hurt Kou irreparably.
â**********. *******. *********. *******.â
He is uttering some words in his language with dull eyes.
Itâs been a long time since he talked this way and I donât know what heâs saying.
He might be dissatisfied with meâŚ
I reached out again, but the pain came out again.
ââŚdonât twouch me.â
The words spit out in a mutter pierced my chest.
However, I donât want to lose Kou like this.
Every time I touched Kou, Iâd suffer from pain, but I ignored it and hugged him.
âKou, sorry.â
âDonât twouch me!â
After yelling, he disappeared from my arms.
But when I looked around, he was very close.
Seems like he could only move a short distance with magic.
When I approached and picked him up again, Kou didnât resist.
âKou, sorry.â
ââŚKou, awone, do, no.â (I donât want to be alone.)
I apologized and almost cried to those words he said while crying.
I should have known that Kou had been lonely ever since he came to this world.
Why did I decide to leave him?
Certainly, there are many dangers on the way.
But then, I just have to protect Kou.
âKou, together, go. Danger, exist. âŚbut, Rodo, protect.â (Kou, letâs go together. If thereâs danger, Iâm here to protect you.)
âRyodo, shorry. âŚbut, awone, shcary.â (Rodo, Iâm sorry, but being alone is scary.)
This time, Kou apologized.
When he said those selfish words, he thought he was bothering me.
But thatâs not the case.
From Kouâs point of view, no one wants to be alone.
Kou is still trying not to build a deep relationship with anyone other than me.
Itâs fine if itâs with Renneiga.
But those I intended to take care of Kou canât be said to be close to him.
Itâs no wonder heâs scared.
âŚwhy didnât I notice that?
âKou, together with Rodo.â
I hugged Kou, who was crying and sometimes hiccuping while stroking his back.
âKou, donât cry.â
I didnât want to make him cryâŚjust what am I doing?
âKou is a child.â
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Itâs probably Renneigaâs usual teasing.
To soothe Kou and to make him stop crying.
ââŚKou, 20, adult.â (Kou will be an adult at 20.)
But Iâm not the only one whoâs surprised by what Kou said.
â20 years old is an adult!? Kou is 18 years old right now, right? Will you become an adult in the next two years?â
Renneiga screamed in amazement.
ââŚmawiage, 18, can.â
But those words surprised me even more.
In other words, Kou is saying heâs already old enough to get married.
âŚbut I donât understand the meaning of Kou being an âadultâ.
If youâre old enough to get married, youâre recognized as an adult.
But strangely, 20 years old is when youâre considered an adult.
âThen why not marry Captain right now? âŚah, ouch!â
I hit Renneigaâs head for saying something extra.
What is he asking Kou, who had stopped crying but still hiccupping?
Besides, he just said he âcan get marriedâ, but never expressed that he wanted to get married.
He said he âlikesâ me, but not romantically.
âŚyou can see that just by looking at him.
ââŚâ
Perhaps he didnât want to say that, so Kou buried his face in my chest.
He probably understood that his feelings for me arenât romantic at all.
Even today, he just didnât want to leave his current guardian.
ââŚbwig, become, can doâŚâ (Once I become big, I can.)